Morning by Morning

Sometimes it takes a direct question from a faraway friend: “How’s it going?” Lately, I’ve wondered. Beyond the occasional Terminator-like computer scan of my systems to make sure I’m still viable, I really couldn’t say. Have never traversed such strange times, that’s for sure.

But Melissa asked, so to honor the question, I gave it some thought. How’s it going? Well, it looks like TS Beta may bring the Texas coast some big rain, which I wish would fall on the wildfires out west. With states further to our east beginning Sally-recovery, post-Laura Louisianians are still waiting for power. RBG has laid down her lawbooks. Sigh. Did you see the movie about her? 

Ah, a shift to the blessing side!

But, how’s it going with YOU, my dear girl, hyperresponsible for the world? What are YOUR blessings? If you DID know, what would they be?

Well, my Sunday school iMovie this week is good if I do say so, not least because it’s a collaboration with an insightful photographer friend. If you’re interested in such things, here’s the link:

My circle of care are all well.

Hmm, what else? Yesterday a man showed me the inside of a yellow schoolbus he’s rigged up as a kind of traveling den. To date I’ve only ever seen the outside, parked in his driveway.    The inside is a marvel of craftsmanship, repurposing of found wood, furnishings, etc. AND he has several bongo drums in it. Which he says he plays.  Like so many things, who knew?? He kept apologizing that it was messy. I had insufficient words for how cool it was and how little I cared about the alleged messiness. Outside the bus along its east side he has containers of black-eyed pea vines growing on trellises. He gave me some dried peas to plant at my house, just for fun. (And better luck for 2021??)


Then, as I was driving home, I saw a duck and her child in a front yard.  Rolled down the window to take a picture, could hear her whistling to beat the band!  That’s because she’s a Black Bellied Whistling Duck (aka Tree Duck, so named because they like to perch and nest in trees.)  I don’t know if she was lecturing the one or calling for its siblings — they usually have a passel of chicks.

As I wrote these blessings to Melissa, I got to thinking they should be circulated more widely. So, here you go!

All Tuckered Out

Born some time ago, physical strength not what it was, 

I can still help the cause by worrying.  

I got awfully tired this week. 

Note to self:  “With cycles and circles we must abide.”  

And so it’s Sunday again, 

and I thought to abide by sitting outside 

in the ‘hush of nature newly born.’ 

Made the mistake of bringing the newspaper with me. 

Then, as if to counter the killing headlines, the usual suspects began to appear. 

I had nothing to give them—not worry, not wisdom, not even a smile.

But smiles came:

Scruffy mocker, singing to himself.

Cardinal family, conferencing in the bottlebrush.

Carolina chickadees, unruffled at my close proximity to their feeder.

Jays zipping overhead.

Flash of woodpecker, then a long beak just visible.

Boisterous wren-song, glimpse of a narrow secretive head.

Tentative tail-wag of a white-wing.

Mystery warbler, evoking faint stir to go get the bird book.

Call it dereliction, but I did not go get the bird book.

“And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be”

I thought of baby Shep, pulling up, practicing his scrunched up smile and royal wave, of his angel sister who got in trouble for throwing a plastic ball at his head—she is after all only two—and did she cry because she was corrected, or because she’s connected?  May we all grow in wisdom and grace. God bless us, every one.

Blue True Dream of a Sky

Around ten this morning I grew tired of refrigerated air and artificial light (tired is not the same as ungrateful!) So I found a corner of the patio still in shade. Here I finished the newspaper, amused by the light breeze wrestling with me for control of the editorial page.  While at this task I heard a high thin whistle.  Not the questioning pe-teew of broad winged hawk, but the descending declarative of Mississippi kite.  Eyes  up and there he was, a male, quick sailing on the effortless up current  of a blue true dream.   Pale head flashing white as he turned, shading into dark. Buoyant, elegant, sleek. And oh what the sight of him did for my heart!

Later, purr of an engine announced a small airplane crossing the blue true dream.  Sunshine yellow. It looked so jaunty and carefree.  Again, good medicine.

Last sighting before I went back inside was a Giant Swallowtail butterfly, winging west.

Here’s one I met on this very patio, many years ago, when I was having a very bad day.  And oh what the sight of him did for my heart!

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Wildlife Chronicles

So the other morning I was deep into weaving one of my iMovies.  When my husband appeared I took a break to feed him his breakfast. While it was underway I glanced at our freezer contents, with an eye to our supper.  Without thinking, I murmured, “O look, 12 dove breasts.” At which my selectively hard of hearing husband’s head came up from his paper, and he said, “Let’s have that tonight.  We’ll do the slow-cooker recipe.”

 

At this, the base of my brain said,

 

“Hold it right there, Strange Unwelcome Idea.

The morning’s half-gone, the dove breasts a frozen block.

Someone will have to go to the store for mushrooms and cream of chicken soup.

The recipe requires every pan in our kitchen.

I’m in the middle of important work.

He should have married someone more interested in cooking.

Etc. Etc.”

 

To which my higher brain replied,

 

“He shot those doves and brought them home for us to eat.

Doves are mighty tasty.

Our evolved contract: When he cooks, I will happily clean the kitchen.

To every heaven-ordained purpose is given time to accomplish it.

So, why ever not?”

 

Before I knew it my hands were running warm water over the frozen block and he was off to the store and I had with only minor reluctance floured the breasts and then the kitchen filled with heavenly aroma.  Which made a nice container for my creative work the rest of the day.

 

There was indeed a mess. Which my recovering perfectionist self walked by a number of times until my iMovie was far enough along that  I felt like washing every pan in the kitchen.

 

This morning, a few days later, I found the leftovers in the fridge and heated three breasts, swimming in mushrooms, onions, and savory broth.  It was so good I took my portion and headed out to eat it under our crape myrtle. High praise indeed, to give something my full attention in that holy place! (Contrast to mindless eating while editing an iMovie…)

 

On my way to the bower I met a sleek young squirrel, scrounging for sunflower seeds under the bird feeder. To my surprise she held her ground, regarding me with bright wary eye.  I assured her it was dove in my bowl, not squirrel.

Cuttings

As a senior (wait, what? I’m still a young thing!) held mostly at home by pandemic, beset by the chill of dread that haunts us all, I’m at the same time strangely warmed by an unlooked for grace that makes me rise with a smile and work happily all day. Creating. Generating. It’s as if all the experiences and findings of my long life have found me. Something wants to be done with all this treasure.  As if it matters.  Does it? I hope so. I’ve heard that when love flows in, you are not to be endpoint but conduit.

 

Mary Oliver’s Instructions for Life:  Pay attention. Be astonished. Tell about it.

 

So, an outflow of poems and pictures and iMovies.  Well and good.  But sometimes I miss something.  It’s true that we don’t notice what we don’t notice.

 

For instance, I’ve been rejoicing in the inexplicable surge of my old hoya vine, which has sat greenly on my sun porch for many years, and is now in a frenzy of pink I can only hope is not its last hurrah.

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This was a gift from a friend, and before that a gift from a friend.  By propagation.

 

Now comes this vine to the attention of another friend, who asked briskly, “Why haven’t you taken a cutting for me?”  When I replied lamely that I never thought to, and besides I don’t know how, she said all you have to do is cut a piece and stick it in a jar of water.

 

So, next pause in Miss Hoya’s furious blooming, I carried her to the sink, unwound her – finding several new buds! – and took a cutting.  We shall see if that’s really all you have to do.

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Reptilian Moves

I’m enjoying the antics of the immature neighborhood hawk.  Active from dawn to dusk, sailing from tree to tree, perching in the Chinese elm, calling out his high hoarse kee-ee! kee-ee!  The songbirds are invisible.

 

Other morning the hawk and I shared a pleasant time in “our” back yard.  It was fun to watch him in his tree, snaking his head from side to side, the better to see what was traversing the airspace above us.  Together we saw high fast flights of doves, egrets, chimney swifts. We spied pink. Roseate spoonbill, I told him.  And no you can’t eat him.

 

Snaking his head. You heard that right.  The sinuosity of his neck reminded me that birds are dinosaurs with feathers.

 

This morning’s reptilian move was inside.  What should I spy in the corner by my bathtub but a very young ribbon snake?  I mastered my terror enough to admire his dark-eyed striped beauty and sympathize with his waving about predicament.  How did I get here? What do I do next? (We both wondered to ourselves.)

 

By the time I got back with a jar and enough courage to help him into it, he was gone.  Where is he now? One may well ask.  Sadly, I don’t know.

 

 

Nest 3 Chronicles: a Huge Sigh of Relief

From Day One she knew it.

The large shred of white plastic she wove into her nest was wrong.

Unnerving, with its bold blue letters.

Like a dress that looked good in the fitting room, but oh my, when you get it home:

What was I thinking??

Well, a dress can go back to the store (could, in the old days)

Or into the closet of hope.

But this! In her face, till the children leave home.

Oh say can you see

How it billows annoyingly?

I’ve glimpsed her tugging

Like the dress tugged one more time over matronly midriff

Which is not going anywhere.

Then she would set the remorse aside

To help someone struggle out of a shell

Or do centering prayer with her husband

Or catch a break to stretch her wings.

This morning she was at it again:

I curse the day I found this miserable shred.

And lo, it came free!

Came free and she settled with a huge sigh

Back onto her babies.

Interfering me, I wondered if I should go out and

Remove it from her sight.

But that would be wrong so many ways.

Not least that her  husband is her practical helper.

And sure enough, before long he took out the garbage.

Soft Summer Morning

July 18, 7:30 a.m.

 

At first I thought it was Mother Robin, standing upright on the rim of her nest, sun turning orange breast to flame. But then I saw her brooding, covering newborns. The steady flame was Father.  He’s usually a hurry of earthworm or housekeeping.  This time, sustained company-keeping.  As if no hurry or worry in the world.

 

They were both looking up, in the same direction.  What caught their attention?  Something in their bower, or something beyond?  Whatever it was, they shared a wordless appreciation. I say appreciation because threat would have called for sharp metallic cry and flurry of action.

 

After a time she resumed her horizontal gaze, yellow beak resting on  the rim of the nest. He looked down and regarded the top of her head, so smooth, dark, and dear.

 

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Robins’ bower

After my kitchen duties, I went outside and sat in my own bower.  The air this morning felt like heaven. I kept Robin silence, listening to cry of blue jay, high hoarse broad-winged hawk, and merry young voices next door.  As I sat, pink crepe came drifting down, regarded the top of my head, nested in my hair.

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Nest 3

Nest 3

 

Magnolia chosen with care

Third nest this season

I see her in the shade, beak hanging open from the heat

I see her wrestle a sky-blue shell

Up to the rim of the cup

For removal as soon as possible

Lest a predator see

Somehow a shred of white plastic

Got built into the nest

Good idea turned too-conspicuous mistake?

Twice I’ve seen her try to unweave it

While two or three blind helpless hungry

She has a lot on her plate

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I Wish to Have Speaks With You

“A very high pitched kee-ee, almost like a whistle.”

 

As raptors go they’re small

A pound or so per hawk,

And O the joy it brings

To hear their high-pitched talk

 

Kee-ee kee-ee says one

From a slightly distant tree

Kee-ee kee-ee replies another

Perched just over me

 

Kee-ee kee-ee from their child

With his longitudinal streaks

And then all three are gathered

The better to have their speaks

 

I stay as still as I can

Neck craned painfully

As they silently plan their agenda

Perched in my lace-bark tree

 

Not a word is spoken

But soon they have a plan

Each lifts to execute it

My neck will be straight when it can

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